Fair warning - this post will contain some adult language not normally found on this blog.
I've been waiting for this day. And I'm honestly surprised that we made it to 4th grade without much incident. I've always been of the assumption that once you reach the upper levels of elementary, you've started being exposed to bigger topics and broader world visions than what you get at home.
I know I first started hearing cuss words on the bus. I would have been pretty young - I'm thinking maybe 2nd grade or so. I also remember getting mad at my mom and writing some cuss words on my wall with a pencil. She cleaned it up and then we sat down and had a conversation about cuss words. What I really remember was her explanation as to why she sometimes liked to use the word "shit." It starts out soft with the shhhhh sound and then ends with a hard and angry sound - T.
My mom wasn't much of a cusser.
When Jeff and I met, he had quite a vocabulary. When I got pregnant, he knew he had to change his ways. So he started subbing the word "smurf" for the cuss words. Which sometimes led to some very funny sentences. But it did change the habit.
We aren't a house that cusses. And we are mindful of language around the kids. When I do cuss, it's at work or out with a friend and not generally just randomly sprinkled in my conversation but more to provide emphasis or emotion.
So my kids haven't really been exposed to a lot of cuss words. And when they have been in a room where someone says Shit or Damn... we just haven't really reacted. We don't give power to the word.
Recently, I was home with the kids and Jeff was out. Teagan tells me that she had an interesting experience at the before care program that morning. A kid was running around telling people to say "gay bitches." Teagan then says "And I fell for it until my friend told me it was bad and so I stopped Zach - thankfully, he didn't say it!"
I love that kids think that saying a cuss word is an action that might cause you to implode or something. Like the act of saying the word is the bad part - not the meaning of the word. I like that because, at least for my kids, they haven't learned the power of those bad words yet. The words themselves don't hold meaning... so it's akin to a bad thing like stealing or hitting someone. Saying the words is a bad action to them.
Teagan goes on to tell me that she didn't know what those words meant. So I took a deep breath and knew it was time to address the topic.
We know what the word gay means and in our family, it isn't a bad word. But sometimes people use it like it's a bad thing to be gay.
Bitch is a derogatory term used towards women. Then I have to explain what "derogatory" means.
Then I ask if they've heard any other words that they know are bad words but they don't understand them...
Teagan says she's heard kids talk about "the s word" but she doesn't know what that word is...
So I explain that the word is "shit."
Zach wants to know what the words means.
Well, it's another word for poop but it's mostly a term people use when they are angry or frustrated.
Zach looks at me, very seriously, and says...
"So if I say "You look like shit," I'm going to get in trouble?"
Yep. You will get in trouble, buddy.
We then go on to the word "ass." Which I explain means butt or donkey. But again, it's a word people use when they are angry and they aren't really using it with that meaning to it.
Teagan then tells me...
"I hear Daddy use ass in the car when he's driving. A lot."
I thought we were done at this point. I thought we'd made it through. I didn't want to get to the "f bomb" because I didn't want to try and explain the definition of the word.
But it seems to be over.
"Mom, what does "frickin" mean?"
I just explain that it's a substitute word for a really bad word and that people use it when they are angry or frustrated (notice that pattern of anger and frustration).
And days later, I realize that I've caught myself using "frickin" far more often in my home than I had been aware of...
Lesson learned. Little pitchers have big ears. They hear everything and absorb everything... even the things we aren't aware of.
Teagan starts 5th grade next year and I know we will be facing a lot more of these kinds of topics. I'm relieved that it took this long to really be exposed to "bad words." I'm glad my kids held on to some of this innocence for as long as they did. I'm glad we've built our home in a community and in a church where my kids have been able and will continue to be able to be children and not forced to grow up too soon, too quickly.
For some, cuss words are no big deal. For me, cuss words are a step into a more adult world. And I'm fine with holding that off for as long as possible.