Back To My Old Self

I took some time today and went back and read some of my blog posts from 1 year ago.

For those of you who have stuck around... thank you.

Dang, I was in a low place.  I was starting to bring myself down just reading about how I used to feel!

I am about 1 year out from the lowest point in my working career... when I had to face Depression for the first time.  It still boggles my mind that I've gone through some really intense stuff but it was the ongoing crappiness of my job situation that finally took me to a point where I needed to face that D word.

And then I reflect on how my life is right now.

And it's incredible... the difference.

New boss, new department, new office.

Back to the Old Me.

I'm excited for Thanksgiving.  I'm eagerly planning the menu and figuring out all the travel needs for the weekend.  A friend is getting married that weekend and I'm excited to be part of her day as a witness in the congregation.

I'm excited to get started on the Christmas season.  I'm still respecting the turkey... no decorations are up yet.  But I am thinking about decorations and holiday events around town and parties and get togethers and Christmas lists and church programs.

I'm actually looking forward to this entire holiday season from Thanksgiving to New Year's Day.

Instead of stress, exhaustion, self doubt, irritaiton, frustration, guilt... that was soooo 2012...

I am filled with love and joy and peace and I want to share it.

Last year, I could barely crack my heart open for compassionate giving.  Did it. But my heart wasn't feeling it.

This year, I'm overflowing and hoping my finances can keep up.

My theme word for 2012 was Steady.  For 2013, it was Reach.  And reflecting back... both were appropriate.  I feel like 2013 is ending with a different focus word.  Celebration.

I'm back to my old self.  And that I'm also new and improved! And I've never felt better!