I spent some quiet time reflecting on my current status today. It was on my morning commute to work. Alone in the car, radio off, phone quiet.
A thought struck me. I was focusing on how to adjust my attitude to face the workday ahead. I'm tired due to a certain new little dog who has to potty in the middle of the night so I am going outside at 3:30 or 4:30 in the morning. I'm right back to overloaded at work and feeling like I'm not getting enough done each day. I'm holding on to keeping work out of home life as best I can (I've really improved a lot on that one from when all the changes hit and I was bringing work home every night, every weekend). But my days are hard and I sometimes feel like I kinda dread being back at work for another day of a long list of to-do's that are all #1 TOP PRIORITY for a long list of Very Important People that expect all of their #1 Priorities to be my Most Urgent Work Of The Day.
And in my quiet reflection, I remembered the prayers I've been sending up for guidance and acceptance and strength. And I remembered the focus word I selected for 2012 (steady). And I heard a voice or suddenly had a though pop into my head...
"I gave it to you because I know you can do it. Yes, this stretches you. But I know that this has an end point, a purpose. Trust. Steady."
So today, I'm calmly focused on doing my best, working my best, doing what I am capable of to the best of my limits and abilities.
One choice at a time, having faith that my ladder is being held steady, knowing that I have the ability to stay focused and strong. I will do my best. It's all that I can do.